Sunday, October 2, 2016

This Should Be Our Prayer

My prayer for today:

Dear Lord,
Could you knock on the door for me,
I want a relationship with you,
I want to leave this place 
I want to walk with you.

I know I am in sin,
I want to get out, but how?
It hurts so bad!

I don’t want my friends, family or others to perish,
It’s on my heart to tell people, come to Jesus.
I want to continue to pray to you in type and on my knees.
Dear God, you can save, you’re the only one.

But I must confess,
I love worldly music too much,
I repent.
I confess not doing music for you and that’s a lack of faith.
I repent.
I confess I want sex,
But you say to wait,
That it’s wrong before marriage,
I repent.

Bring all to you
Not meaning this selfishly,
But if we all shall be saved.
I mean it.

I confess I need money,
But I focus too much on it,
I just continue to fail financially monthly,
I need something new.
I need you to provide me the funds,
Or the way to provide myself funds,
To get out of debt.

Do I need to get out of debt,
Before moving on,
Do you want me to leave family
And then I will get out of debt?

I don’t know what you want me to do,
But I trust that you have my best interests at heart.
Dear God, lead me please.

I want to write music for Jesus!!
I want Jesus!
I want Jesus!
Jesus!

Show up in my life,
Give me happiness,
Give me that peace to deal with things,
When anger and sin abounds.
I beg you, bring me peace!
I trust you.

I’m choosing to change my life,
For you, Jesus!
I want a change from all this stress,
God, change my life,
Come into my heart!

I’m in tears.